A Guide: Everything Needed to Reinvent Your Pain

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By Allanah Brady

Do you believe that we must burn in order to rise?

In a word; yes.

I believe in the art of spiritual alchemy.

In taking our pain,

Our trauma,

Our difficult experiences,

And having the courage to step into the fire,

To create spiritual gold.

 

I believe everything that has happened to me,

Every trauma,

Every scar,

Every moment of the pain and isolation,

Has created who I am today.

 

I have empathy, because I’ve known great pain.

I have courage, because I’ve known great fear.

I have passion, because I’ve had to fight for what I believe in.

And I have resilience, because I’ve had to fight to survive.

 

‘Our greatest glory not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.’

 

I believe that there are times when we all fall,

When we all stumble,

When we all feel weak,

When we all want to give up.

But our strength is shown when,

Despite the pain,

Despite the struggle,

Despite the doubt,

And the fear,

And the fatigue we feel,

We consciously choose to keep fighting,

To keep pushing,

To keep going.

 

It’s not that we never fall,

We never feel weak,

We never feel tired,

We never want to give up.

It’s that we keep going,

Despite all those things.

 

And so, true strength is not in the never falling down,

It’s in the getting back up,

Again,

And again,

And again.

Even when we don’t want to.

 

‘Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuild my life.’

 

There have been countless times in my life

When I have found myself in a deep dark hole

Of pain, loneliness, and emotional fatigue.

 

You know,

Those times when you feel like you’re drowning in life’s difficulties,

And the pain is unbearable,

And you feel yourself losing the strength to go on,

And you are about ready to throw in the towel.

 

This is a place I am painfully familiar with.

 

But there is something that happens to me,

When I find myself at the bottom.

Something inside of me,

A voice from within,

That sends me a quiet message of

“You can make it through this.”

 

And every time I find myself in that place,

That voice gets stronger,

Because I’ve proven to myself

That I can climb my way out of that hole.

 

And every time I have to claw my way back out,

I get stronger.

 

But I think the greatest gift that I’ve found from being in that place

Is that, every time I lose touch with who I am,

Every time I have to reevaluate everything in my life,

Every time I have to reevaluate my values, and what’s important to me,

Not only do I have a chance to rebuild my life

In a way that is more authentic to where I’m at,

But I also get to reinvent myself,

Into a me that feels more resonance,

More authenticity,

More integrity

To the person that I have become

Through going through the swamplands

Of pain, and despair and hopelessness,

I get to choose what parts of myself that I hold onto

And what parts of myself that I feel it’s time to let go of.

 

So, stepping into the fire

Of pain, and hardship, and hopelessness,

I am given the opportunity,

To work through those emotions,

To choose to create and embrace a new version of myself.

Every time.

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Allanah Brady

Allanah Brady

Mother, wife and self confessed hippie. I'm fiercely sensitive, and a natural empath. I am recently back into writing after many years. My two greatest passions are writing and singing. I am well known in my circle as being the music buff, and people come to me when they want to know the name of a song or the artist who sings it. Music is a huge passion of mine, and it carried me through when I wasn't writing. When I write, I feel like I am in my flow, and I am in touch with a deeper part of myself. I don't feel like myself when I'm not writing.
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