By Allanah Brady
Do you believe that we must burn in order to rise?
In a word; yes.
I believe in the art of spiritual alchemy.
In taking our pain,
Our difficult experiences,
And having the courage to step into the fire,
To create spiritual gold.
I believe everything that has happened to me,
Every moment of the pain and isolation,
Has created who I am today.
I have empathy, because I’ve known great pain.
I have courage, because I’ve known great fear.
I have passion, because I’ve had to fight for what I believe in.
And I have resilience, because I’ve had to fight to survive.
‘Our greatest glory not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.’
I believe that there are times when we all fall,
When we all stumble,
When we all feel weak,
When we all want to give up.
But our strength is shown when,
Despite the pain,
Despite the struggle,
Despite the doubt,
And the fear,
And the fatigue we feel,
We consciously choose to keep fighting,
To keep pushing,
To keep going.
It’s not that we never fall,
We never feel weak,
We never feel tired,
We never want to give up.
It’s that we keep going,
Despite all those things.
And so, true strength is not in the never falling down,
It’s in the getting back up,
Even when we don’t want to.
‘Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuild my life.’
There have been countless times in my life
When I have found myself in a deep dark hole
Of pain, loneliness, and emotional fatigue.
Those times when you feel like you’re drowning in life’s difficulties,
And the pain is unbearable,
And you feel yourself losing the strength to go on,
And you are about ready to throw in the towel.
This is a place I am painfully familiar with.
But there is something that happens to me,
When I find myself at the bottom.
Something inside of me,
A voice from within,
That sends me a quiet message of
“You can make it through this.”
And every time I find myself in that place,
That voice gets stronger,
Because I’ve proven to myself
That I can climb my way out of that hole.
And every time I have to claw my way back out,
I get stronger.
But I think the greatest gift that I’ve found from being in that place
Is that, every time I lose touch with who I am,
Every time I have to reevaluate everything in my life,
Every time I have to reevaluate my values, and what’s important to me,
Not only do I have a chance to rebuild my life
In a way that is more authentic to where I’m at,
But I also get to reinvent myself,
Into a me that feels more resonance,
To the person that I have become
Through going through the swamplands
Of pain, and despair and hopelessness,
I get to choose what parts of myself that I hold onto
And what parts of myself that I feel it’s time to let go of.
So, stepping into the fire
Of pain, and hardship, and hopelessness,
I am given the opportunity,
To work through those emotions,
To choose to create and embrace a new version of myself.